GED and Shadow.

     Hello my dear readers. It's me again. I just wnted to share a little of my good news! I'm going back to school to get my G.E.D. I am so excited. I went this morning for orientation. Then tomarrow I go back for my second day orientation. Then I will be a student again. It was so fun to say I "just got home from school'' earlier. But anyways, I am super duper excited. Hopefully, by October I will have my GED and I can start looking into going to college and applying for scholorships and etc. I got big big goals!! :)
     Also, I got a seven month old toy poodle puppy. Her name is "Shadow." She is a silver color.She is very skiddish at times too. But I got her house broke and everything. I love her! :) In just two days she has became my best friend!!

Love you guys,
-PrincessAddiction1031

Addiction Poem

A SHOT TO KILL THE PAIN.

A PILL TO DRAIN THE SHAME.

A PURGE TO STOP THE GAIN.

A CUT TO BREAK THE VEIN.

A SMOKE TO EASE THE CRAVE.

A DRINK TO WIN THE GAME.

AN ADDICTION'S AN ADDICTION BECAUSE IT ALWAYS HURTS THE SAME...

Random Girl

Hey guys! :) I just wanted to share a link to "Random Girl's" Blog. She has recently posted 2 new blogs that are definately worth sharing. I want to commend her for "Speaking Out" for what she believes in... What I believe in. You see it's really not fair how us "Drug Users" are looked down on. Have you ever took the time to listen to our views? Well, She says some things in her blogs I agree with so strongly. She couldn't have worded it aany better. So I decided it was worth sharing. Kudos to Random Girl and Her Blog : Meth and Me; Diary of a Tweaker.

Articles:

Prison Flashbacks & Our "Justice System" - Part 1

http://me-and-meth.blogspot.com/2011/08/prison-flashbacks-syringe-access-laws.html

Our "Justice System" - Part 2

http://me-and-meth.blogspot.com/2011/08/our-justice-system-part-2.html

Addiction from Hell (A poem by PrincessAddiction1031)

   A little bit before you read:

I wrote the poem "Addiction from Hell" a few months ago. It is very personal to me and I have decided to share it. This poem was writted while I was going through my withdrawls. I felt alone. The needle was my best friend at that time. The poem is basically centered around "Shooting Up Meth." Feel free to leave comments.

Addiction from Hell

Written by: PrincessAddiction1031

Date: 5/9/2011

What is this voice I hear calling my name?

It's sharp, horrid screams are reaching out for my vein.

I try to avoid it, I try not to reply,

It continues to own me, especially when I cry.

Why do I keep giving in?

Why won't it go away?

It's love, it's sweet addiction reminds me it's here to stay.

It's power surrounds me, it's evil every day, every night.

Temptation, such a struggle,

Even then, do I fight.

Just one hit, my mood becomes new.

I keep a smile, and even make love a ittle too.

I will surrender, just one more time, again.

A prick, a prod, but this time it's in.

Here I go, I'm starting to fly.

My heart is racing, but I know why.

 A shot of Methamphetamine.

I'm sorry loved ones, I really tried.

The End.

A Song For The Moment:

Get Out Alive- Three Days Grace

Yummy In My Tummy Reminds Me of When Food Didn't Matter to Me Much..

     Well I am back again.  Today I went grocery shopping. This will probably be a boring post for you but I am very bored. I was thinking earlier about how when you do meth, alot of times, it's hard to eat afterwards. Thats why you lose so much weight. I remember I used to drink Sunny D and eat anything I was craving, just to have something in me. I would sometimes go 3 or 4 days without eating anything. It was very hard to stay hydrated. One time I even passed out while driving, luckily the person I was with helped me, and got his friend to bring me food right down the road so I could get my blood sugar back up. I have found that while going through withdraws I love to eat noodles, and I ate EVERY 5 minutes. LOL. It's like you gotta catch up on the missed sleep and not eating! I love my sleep and food now. Anyways, Enough for now. I'm gunna go start fixing myself dinner. :) It's kinda lonely ccoking for just yourself, but, ya kinow. I pray for the homeless, addicts on the street that they get shelter and food for the night. Tweakers need love too! :)

-PrincessAddiction1031

P.s. Anyone got any stories or anything they'd like me to post on my blog. Or even anything interesting you've found. E-mail me at princessaddiction1031@yahoo.com :) <3 

I'm Just Me, And My Adventure Isn't Over Yet!

      Well, I thought it was time for another update! I've had a hectic last few days. It's been a comic book pretty much, But I've had good things happen too, So I can't complain too much! Also this article will have some personal stuff in it. Sick of holding it in. Oh, and there's also Some of my favorites, in music. Enjoy!

     So, I was camping last night, and today I ran out of gas. Poor Bertha (My Buick),  was so upset. Luckly I had a good friend to come and rescue me!  Then a huge snake (which i'm deathly afraid of.) was EXTREMELY too close for comfort! :) I bout died. Then I poured gasoline on my fire. Then lit it. Well I shoulda been born blonde but, I walked right up to it right before the gas actually lit, and POOF! Scared the shit out of me! :) But I am alive still! Thank God. Haha.
     Also, On my very interesting last few days, a friend and I made a visit to Coinstar. With Pennies. Over $120 worth. We were cashing in for over two hours. It was a priceless moment. :) Yay, for saving pennies I guess! :)
     I guess I can express some sad news now. Well, for me anyways. When I got on drugs, I lost my best friend. We will call him Jojo. I broke his heart and we lost contact for about eight months. Before I went crazy, He stood by my side while my sister was dying, he helped me through so much tough stuff, and I did him too. We are VERY good friends again, and I am so thankful for that. ?he gave me another chance, he helps me when I m depressed and want to run to my weakness. He was my life. At the end of August I get to watch him drive away to another county, far away for college. I'm getting ready to ball my eyes out. When we were younger, it was a day we never thought would come. I guess a plus is, he talks to me just like old times, I am really gunna miss this guy. I know I'll be the one waiting when he comes home for Christmas to tackle him with a big hug. I know things probably worked out for our best interest, he will always be the best friend I ever had, and I still have. Thanks to
God! 
     One more thing that has happened lately...I am going to get my GED in my county! I am gunna get a check to help for gas from the government and they will also pay for the test, twice. I am extremely excited! I start this week. I am very proud of myself :)


     It is so hard to live life lately. There's no jobs. I am so sick of trying to find one. Everywhere you look it is so hard.  I know God has got my back though!

     I am a good person. Reguardless of my past. My past doesn't define me. I am starting to not care about what others have to say about me. I have spent so much time trying to please everyone else and not myself. I have chased down so many people and tried to keep them in my life. Well not anymore. I am ME. Don't try to change me because only I can make that decision. As I have previously stated, Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. I won't blame others for my unhappiness anymore. I am not destroyed. I am still fully alive deep down. I don't trust too easily from being burned too many times. One thing I have learned is, this is MY LIFE. I'll live it the way I want too. I will choose the things that I do for entertainment and also the people I allow to be in my life. I am determined to be a successful and happy lady some day. I have just begun my adventure, I know that my life is full of opportunities, I also I know it will be full of struggles and obstacles. Unfortunately, for those of you who want to get entertainment out of judging me for my past, and putting me down, I guess you better find aa new hobby! I will not fail, and if I do...I will have the strength to get back up again. I'm excited about life, with God's help, I will be happy!!!!!

Much Love and Virtual Hugs,
-PrincessAddiction1031


P.S.  I didn't read like any of my library books, and I think they are overdue..
P.S.S.Here is some music I've been listening too lately (so you can get to know me a little better! )....

Music is my escape <3

*Boys Like Girls                            *Christina Perri
*Katy Perry
*Lady Antebellum
*Marilyn Manson
*Miranda Lambert
*Nicki Manaj
*Paramore
*Pink
*Rascal Flatts
*Taylor Swift
*The Band Perry
*The Script
*Three Days Grace

*Evanescence
*Flyleaf
*Hollywood Undead
*Jason Aldean
*Carrie Underwood
*Jordin Sparks
*Ke$ha

My Top 5 Favorite Songs as of August 3, 2011. (This will prolly change frequently...LOL.)

1.) For the First Time-The Script...Why? It's about the hard times NOW.
2.)Get Out Alive-Three Days Grace...Why? It's got ALOT of meaning.
3.)Innocent-Taylor Swift...Why? Talks about second chances.
4.)Perfect-Pink... Why? It's very encouraging..
5.)Nutshell-Alice in Chains... Why? It is a sad song, about a dope addict.

Well, I hope you enjoyed my reading!
Comment Comment Comment! And mke me very happy :)

Backstabbers, Sobriety, Love, Sacrifice, and a new Kitten :)

     Hello world. :) Well, the past few days have been VERY hectic. My boyfriend and I hve been though alot of crazy shit. Crazy roomates, a backstabbing best friend running his mouth, realizing being sober is better then staying high, sacrificing something who means the most to me but being tired of fighting for happiness, and we got a new little kitty.

     Crazy roomates? So Mack, (My boyfriend) got kicked out of his house last week. So we moved into a new place with a guy who's a meth addict, but has been clean for a long time, and his girlfriend i've been friends with for a while. Well, the first few days was great other then the fact they didn't have electricity. Mack and I would go to his parents to eat, or swimming and other things and the roomate kept blowing up0 his phone. Wanting to know where we were at all times. I understand he was worried. Well..long story short. They became VERY obsessive and controlling over us. Mack couldn't take any more so he wenrt and got his shit and begged his grandma to come home. LOL. She let him and things got g=crazier with the roomates accusing us of stuff and saying they called the law and all sorts of shit. LOL. Its kinda freaky, i'm glad we got outta there before we got murdered. LOL :)

     The backstabbing best friend and sacrifice? Well, Mack has been best friends with this guy for years. He was my best friend, he's  also family to me. His daughter is my world. He's running from the law for many things, but yet he's gunna mess with the two people who sacrifices so much for him? He's stupid. He told my aunt (his mom) a bunch of shit about my boyfriend and me so that i'm not allowed to see his daughter. His daughter calls me mom and would rather be with me then him almost any day, of course he is too damn stupid to see that. Normally, i'd throw a fit. But my happiness is most important and unfortunately, they're stupidity is something I cannot control. So I'm just waiting for it to blow over...

     Mack and I got a new kitty? I was excited. She's just now weaned off the momma kitty. She is a calico kitten, and I got to name her "Bella". That's only after arguing about drug names to name her. LOL. :)

     Sobriety? Being sober is GREAT. :)

Well, This blog has been a bit about my personal life... :) I love you all!

<3- PrincessAddiction1031

Still an Innocent....

Innocent* Taylor Swift

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This song has so much meaning behind it. I am a HUGE Taylor Swift fan! So, Of coure I have to bring her up on my page. Anyways, If you've never heard this song, please listen to it. Life was so much easier when someone made all our decisions for us. I couldn't wait to be 18, and now, I want to still be running from monsters. LOL. This song reminds me that EVERYONE has made mistakes in the past. That doesn't mean you should EVER give up on life because its not too late to be new. It isn't too late for you. It doesn't matter what anyone else says about you. You are beautiful.  Who you are is not what you've been...You're still an innocent!

SHOUT OUT: To the convicted felons, drug addicts, and the ones who think of themselves as worthless. Don't give up! I believe in YOU! :)

Also, SHOUT OUT: Taylor Swift. She is my absolute favorite country artist! :)

Life isn't about finding yourself; it's about creating yourself!

All the world needs is a little more LOVE!

Forever Yours,

-PrincessAddiction1031 :)

Haha, My library experience, histerical.

     Okay,so. I've been putting in applications around town. Being this broke absolutely sucks! So I will be sitting at home for a few days. I decided to go the library and check out some booke, I love to read. I checked out the book entitled "Methamphetamine" by Hal Marcovitz. While the lady was ringing up my books, I had that one on the very bottom.  She looks at it. And goes "Uhhhh, They're due August 4th!" And throws the receipt in it really fast and turns around and sits down. My friend Bob and I while walking out the door, glanced at eachother and busted out laughing. It was so funny. I got the book because I enjoy studying the drug. I been completely sober for a while now, It's actually an anniversary tomarrow! :) Now long? None of your buisiness. But I'm doing better then I ever have! :) Anyways, Thats it for now. I'll letcha know trhe other books I checked out, and my reviews. After all, I'll be sitting at home again for a few weeks, hopefully I'll get a job call soon!! :)

Other books:
*Twilight-Stephanie Meyer (I uxed to own it but read it so many times I could quote it so I sold it, time to start again! And the movies ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!!)
*The Host-Stephanie Meyer
*The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants-Ann Brashares (LOVE THE MOVIE)
*Being Nikki-Meg Cabot

Much Love to ALL!!!

-PrincessAddiction1031

The "Not So Happy" Side of the Situation...

   After wiping my tears from the first post, I decided to write some more. Drug dealers want you to see all the good and nothing of the bad. Once again, this is a little of my personal life. Please don't get offended, or feel sorry for me. It's a little late now.
    Before my experience with Methamphetamine: This was me.

• I had a full time job working as a CNA at the local nursing home.
• I had some of the most AMAZING friends in the world, I have been blessed enough to get some of them back. Others, I will never truely know again.
• I was a worship singer at my UPC church.
• At one time I had plans of attending Bible College.
• I never missed a church service, ever.

     I truely had everything going for me. I really did. Meth or any drugs rather was the cause of me losing alot. You may ask, what caused her to do drugs? Depression. I lost my older sister three days before my eighteenth birthday. I didn't hit a club on my birthday, I attended a funeral. I had lived perfect for seven years. I believed in God with all I had. When my sister died, I got bitter, angry, and lost all of my faith in God. I went CRAZY.

     I sure partied after that. I popped any pill handed to me. Smoked anything given to me. I have so many nights I don't remember. I should have died in all that craziness. But I didn't. In three months I went from UPC church girl to most recent for getting fired for failing a drug test at the nursing home. Party in a cup. There went my income, and i was about to lose alot more...

Gotta go wipe my tears some more.

Love to All,
PrincessAddiction1031
       

A Little Insight of the Rush

     It truely depends on the way you use it. You can smoke it, snort it, and last but not least, shoot it. My first experience with Methamphetamine was truely AMAZING. I snorted a little line on a bathroom sink, and it set my nose on fire. It burned like crazy, I almost cried. Within five minutes of just the little line I was given, I was shaking. It was a rush like I had never felt before. I waited on my friend to get in the car so I could tell him my insight.  I really wasn't sure if I should drive or not. I did anyways. Going through the red light, not literally, of course I stopped. I thought it was so pretty! Luckily I didn't have far to drive at all. Little did I know that little white line i snorted through a dollar bill, would change me forever.

    Later that night I learned how to smoke it. The jittery, creepy crawler feeling ran through my head. I was so high. It's like a redbull, "It gives you wings". I'm totally just kidding. I felt so beautiful, and confused. I was raised better than this I thought, but oh well. Every one of us in the little room were having a blast. I wasn't the only first time user there. So I didn't feel so alone in  not knowing what to do. We laughed, we got high. I thought it was just for that one night. But that was only my beginning in the world of Methamphetamine. Tomarrow was another day.

    Needles. Most people are queezy at the sight of them. You'd think you'd need a nursing license to even get your hands on one. Boy is that wrong. They are EVERYWHERE. On day two of my Methamphetamine journey, I was introduced to "Shooting up."
    I watched as he put a little tiny chunk of the white powder in a spoon, and then drenched it with a little water. It dissappeared. How cool was that?!? He broke off a filter from a cigarette, and put it on the end of the needle, and sucked up what was about to be introduced to my vein into the little syringe. Meth and I, Were about to crosss some boundaries I had swore to never cross.
    I'm a girl. I have extremely hard to see veins. After a few pokes and prods he finally hit one. He pulled back as I watched my blood mix into the syringe and fill it up. He got me. As he pushed the plunger in I felt my heart rate go flying. I was flying. I was bouncing. It was an amazing rush, so fast, so dangerous! Yet I was FEARLESS. I stayed up all night bouncing off the walls. I remember I smoked 9 cigarettes that night just for the hell of it. How could I have missed out on such an amazing thing for so long? I was hooked...and there was nothing I could do about it.

    So you see, this is just a preview of my journey with Meth. This just tells the good things and not the bad. Please readers, Don't stop reading my journey now. In the end, this blog, may save someone you loves life. Feel free to ask questions and leave comments. 

Are you a meth user? Let me publish your story. Got questions or answers? Let me know. Want to make a comment? Please Do. Please feel free to publish on this site. My email address is saveadrugaddictslife@yahoo.com :) Messages welcome there too.

Just a Tweaker You Say,
-PrincessAddiction1031