Hello my dear readers. It's me again. I just wnted to share a little of my good news! I'm going back to school to get my G.E.D. I am so excited. I went this morning for orientation. Then tomarrow I go back for my second day orientation. Then I will be a student again. It was so fun to say I "just got home from school'' earlier. But anyways, I am super duper excited. Hopefully, by October I will have my GED and I can start looking into going to college and applying for scholorships and etc. I got big big goals!! :)
Also, I got a seven month old toy poodle puppy. Her name is "Shadow." She is a silver color.She is very skiddish at times too. But I got her house broke and everything. I love her! :) In just two days she has became my best friend!!
Love you guys,
-PrincessAddiction1031
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Monday, August 8, 2011
Addiction Poem
A SHOT TO KILL THE PAIN.
A PILL TO DRAIN THE SHAME.
A PURGE TO STOP THE GAIN.
A CUT TO BREAK THE VEIN.
A SMOKE TO EASE THE CRAVE.
A DRINK TO WIN THE GAME.
AN ADDICTION'S AN ADDICTION BECAUSE IT ALWAYS HURTS THE SAME...
Random Girl
Hey guys! :) I just wanted to share a link to "Random Girl's" Blog. She has recently posted 2 new blogs that are definately worth sharing. I want to commend her for "Speaking Out" for what she believes in... What I believe in. You see it's really not fair how us "Drug Users" are looked down on. Have you ever took the time to listen to our views? Well, She says some things in her blogs I agree with so strongly. She couldn't have worded it aany better. So I decided it was worth sharing. Kudos to Random Girl and Her Blog : Meth and Me; Diary of a Tweaker.
Articles:
Articles:
Prison Flashbacks & Our "Justice System" - Part 1
Our "Justice System" - Part 2
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Addiction from Hell (A poem by PrincessAddiction1031)
A little bit before you read:
I wrote the poem "Addiction from Hell" a few months ago. It is very personal to me and I have decided to share it. This poem was writted while I was going through my withdrawls. I felt alone. The needle was my best friend at that time. The poem is basically centered around "Shooting Up Meth." Feel free to leave comments.
Addiction from Hell
Written by: PrincessAddiction1031
Date: 5/9/2011
What is this voice I hear calling my name?
It's sharp, horrid screams are reaching out for my vein.
I try to avoid it, I try not to reply,
It continues to own me, especially when I cry.
Why do I keep giving in?
Why won't it go away?
It's love, it's sweet addiction reminds me it's here to stay.
It's power surrounds me, it's evil every day, every night.
Temptation, such a struggle,
Even then, do I fight.
Just one hit, my mood becomes new.
I keep a smile, and even make love a ittle too.
I will surrender, just one more time, again.
A prick, a prod, but this time it's in.
Here I go, I'm starting to fly.
My heart is racing, but I know why.
A shot of Methamphetamine.
I'm sorry loved ones, I really tried.
The End.
A Song For The Moment:
Get Out Alive- Three Days Grace
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Yummy In My Tummy Reminds Me of When Food Didn't Matter to Me Much..
Well I am back again. Today I went grocery shopping. This will probably be a boring post for you but I am very bored. I was thinking earlier about how when you do meth, alot of times, it's hard to eat afterwards. Thats why you lose so much weight. I remember I used to drink Sunny D and eat anything I was craving, just to have something in me. I would sometimes go 3 or 4 days without eating anything. It was very hard to stay hydrated. One time I even passed out while driving, luckily the person I was with helped me, and got his friend to bring me food right down the road so I could get my blood sugar back up. I have found that while going through withdraws I love to eat noodles, and I ate EVERY 5 minutes. LOL. It's like you gotta catch up on the missed sleep and not eating! I love my sleep and food now. Anyways, Enough for now. I'm gunna go start fixing myself dinner. :) It's kinda lonely ccoking for just yourself, but, ya kinow. I pray for the homeless, addicts on the street that they get shelter and food for the night. Tweakers need love too! :)
-PrincessAddiction1031
P.s. Anyone got any stories or anything they'd like me to post on my blog. Or even anything interesting you've found. E-mail me at princessaddiction1031@yahoo.com :) <3
-PrincessAddiction1031
P.s. Anyone got any stories or anything they'd like me to post on my blog. Or even anything interesting you've found. E-mail me at princessaddiction1031@yahoo.com :) <3
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
I'm Just Me, And My Adventure Isn't Over Yet!
Well, I thought it was time for another update! I've had a hectic last few days. It's been a comic book pretty much, But I've had good things happen too, So I can't complain too much! Also this article will have some personal stuff in it. Sick of holding it in. Oh, and there's also Some of my favorites, in music. Enjoy!
So, I was camping last night, and today I ran out of gas. Poor Bertha (My Buick), was so upset. Luckly I had a good friend to come and rescue me! Then a huge snake (which i'm deathly afraid of.) was EXTREMELY too close for comfort! :) I bout died. Then I poured gasoline on my fire. Then lit it. Well I shoulda been born blonde but, I walked right up to it right before the gas actually lit, and POOF! Scared the shit out of me! :) But I am alive still! Thank God. Haha.
Also, On my very interesting last few days, a friend and I made a visit to Coinstar. With Pennies. Over $120 worth. We were cashing in for over two hours. It was a priceless moment. :) Yay, for saving pennies I guess! :)
I guess I can express some sad news now. Well, for me anyways. When I got on drugs, I lost my best friend. We will call him Jojo. I broke his heart and we lost contact for about eight months. Before I went crazy, He stood by my side while my sister was dying, he helped me through so much tough stuff, and I did him too. We are VERY good friends again, and I am so thankful for that. ?he gave me another chance, he helps me when I m depressed and want to run to my weakness. He was my life. At the end of August I get to watch him drive away to another county, far away for college. I'm getting ready to ball my eyes out. When we were younger, it was a day we never thought would come. I guess a plus is, he talks to me just like old times, I am really gunna miss this guy. I know I'll be the one waiting when he comes home for Christmas to tackle him with a big hug. I know things probably worked out for our best interest, he will always be the best friend I ever had, and I still have. Thanks to
God!
One more thing that has happened lately...I am going to get my GED in my county! I am gunna get a check to help for gas from the government and they will also pay for the test, twice. I am extremely excited! I start this week. I am very proud of myself :)
It is so hard to live life lately. There's no jobs. I am so sick of trying to find one. Everywhere you look it is so hard. I know God has got my back though!
I am a good person. Reguardless of my past. My past doesn't define me. I am starting to not care about what others have to say about me. I have spent so much time trying to please everyone else and not myself. I have chased down so many people and tried to keep them in my life. Well not anymore. I am ME. Don't try to change me because only I can make that decision. As I have previously stated, Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. I won't blame others for my unhappiness anymore. I am not destroyed. I am still fully alive deep down. I don't trust too easily from being burned too many times. One thing I have learned is, this is MY LIFE. I'll live it the way I want too. I will choose the things that I do for entertainment and also the people I allow to be in my life. I am determined to be a successful and happy lady some day. I have just begun my adventure, I know that my life is full of opportunities, I also I know it will be full of struggles and obstacles. Unfortunately, for those of you who want to get entertainment out of judging me for my past, and putting me down, I guess you better find aa new hobby! I will not fail, and if I do...I will have the strength to get back up again. I'm excited about life, with God's help, I will be happy!!!!!
Much Love and Virtual Hugs,
-PrincessAddiction1031
P.S. I didn't read like any of my library books, and I think they are overdue..
P.S.S.Here is some music I've been listening too lately (so you can get to know me a little better! )....
Music is my escape <3
*Boys Like Girls *Christina Perri
*Katy Perry
*Lady Antebellum
*Marilyn Manson
*Miranda Lambert
*Nicki Manaj
*Paramore
*Pink
*Rascal Flatts
*Taylor Swift
*The Band Perry
*The Script
*Three Days Grace
*Evanescence
*Flyleaf
*Hollywood Undead
*Jason Aldean
*Carrie Underwood
*Jordin Sparks
*Ke$ha
My Top 5 Favorite Songs as of August 3, 2011. (This will prolly change frequently...LOL.)
1.) For the First Time-The Script...Why? It's about the hard times NOW.
2.)Get Out Alive-Three Days Grace...Why? It's got ALOT of meaning.
3.)Innocent-Taylor Swift...Why? Talks about second chances.
4.)Perfect-Pink... Why? It's very encouraging..
5.)Nutshell-Alice in Chains... Why? It is a sad song, about a dope addict.
Well, I hope you enjoyed my reading!
Comment Comment Comment! And mke me very happy :)
So, I was camping last night, and today I ran out of gas. Poor Bertha (My Buick), was so upset. Luckly I had a good friend to come and rescue me! Then a huge snake (which i'm deathly afraid of.) was EXTREMELY too close for comfort! :) I bout died. Then I poured gasoline on my fire. Then lit it. Well I shoulda been born blonde but, I walked right up to it right before the gas actually lit, and POOF! Scared the shit out of me! :) But I am alive still! Thank God. Haha.
Also, On my very interesting last few days, a friend and I made a visit to Coinstar. With Pennies. Over $120 worth. We were cashing in for over two hours. It was a priceless moment. :) Yay, for saving pennies I guess! :)
I guess I can express some sad news now. Well, for me anyways. When I got on drugs, I lost my best friend. We will call him Jojo. I broke his heart and we lost contact for about eight months. Before I went crazy, He stood by my side while my sister was dying, he helped me through so much tough stuff, and I did him too. We are VERY good friends again, and I am so thankful for that. ?he gave me another chance, he helps me when I m depressed and want to run to my weakness. He was my life. At the end of August I get to watch him drive away to another county, far away for college. I'm getting ready to ball my eyes out. When we were younger, it was a day we never thought would come. I guess a plus is, he talks to me just like old times, I am really gunna miss this guy. I know I'll be the one waiting when he comes home for Christmas to tackle him with a big hug. I know things probably worked out for our best interest, he will always be the best friend I ever had, and I still have. Thanks to
God!
One more thing that has happened lately...I am going to get my GED in my county! I am gunna get a check to help for gas from the government and they will also pay for the test, twice. I am extremely excited! I start this week. I am very proud of myself :)
It is so hard to live life lately. There's no jobs. I am so sick of trying to find one. Everywhere you look it is so hard. I know God has got my back though!
I am a good person. Reguardless of my past. My past doesn't define me. I am starting to not care about what others have to say about me. I have spent so much time trying to please everyone else and not myself. I have chased down so many people and tried to keep them in my life. Well not anymore. I am ME. Don't try to change me because only I can make that decision. As I have previously stated, Life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself. I won't blame others for my unhappiness anymore. I am not destroyed. I am still fully alive deep down. I don't trust too easily from being burned too many times. One thing I have learned is, this is MY LIFE. I'll live it the way I want too. I will choose the things that I do for entertainment and also the people I allow to be in my life. I am determined to be a successful and happy lady some day. I have just begun my adventure, I know that my life is full of opportunities, I also I know it will be full of struggles and obstacles. Unfortunately, for those of you who want to get entertainment out of judging me for my past, and putting me down, I guess you better find aa new hobby! I will not fail, and if I do...I will have the strength to get back up again. I'm excited about life, with God's help, I will be happy!!!!!
Much Love and Virtual Hugs,
-PrincessAddiction1031
P.S. I didn't read like any of my library books, and I think they are overdue..
P.S.S.Here is some music I've been listening too lately (so you can get to know me a little better! )....
Music is my escape <3
*Boys Like Girls *Christina Perri
*Katy Perry
*Lady Antebellum
*Marilyn Manson
*Miranda Lambert
*Nicki Manaj
*Paramore
*Pink
*Rascal Flatts
*Taylor Swift
*The Band Perry
*The Script
*Three Days Grace
*Evanescence
*Flyleaf
*Hollywood Undead
*Jason Aldean
*Carrie Underwood
*Jordin Sparks
*Ke$ha
My Top 5 Favorite Songs as of August 3, 2011. (This will prolly change frequently...LOL.)
1.) For the First Time-The Script...Why? It's about the hard times NOW.
2.)Get Out Alive-Three Days Grace...Why? It's got ALOT of meaning.
3.)Innocent-Taylor Swift...Why? Talks about second chances.
4.)Perfect-Pink... Why? It's very encouraging..
5.)Nutshell-Alice in Chains... Why? It is a sad song, about a dope addict.
Well, I hope you enjoyed my reading!
Comment Comment Comment! And mke me very happy :)
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